Bed Blog #1

I can only remember (or find the energy) to blog when I'm in bed at 2 am, so most of my thoughts are laced with the sleeps. 

My Mondays are always the same. Apparel Process for 6 hrs but I enjoyed today. That's not so normal since 6 hrs in the same spot is a lot to get through. 

Same process as always, patterns first, sewing later. We sewed together cute little mock pieces to demo darts, and I was in love with how tiny the pieces were. We are sewing together a dress from our own patters by the end of the summer. We have the option to make it in the muslin (this ugly plain cotton fabric above) or bring our own woven fabric. I haven't decided what I want to do yet, but I've got a week to figure it out.

Midterm is next week, which is week 5, and I'm freaking out. Time has flew by! It's crazy that I'll be a quarter done with my program in just 6 weeks.

Mom comes to see me next weekend and I couldn't be more excited. Mostly excited for free groceries though. ;) 

Rain.

It's 2:51 AM.

I just got off of Skype with B after spending hours laughing and watching Netflix simultaneously. 

I love being out here to live out my dreams and explore new parts of myself. I love having the option to start over and create new habits for myself. What I do not love is feeling this alone. 

It sounds so luxurious to be living in LA and going to a well-known fashion school. But it's not all glitter and gold. I am surrounded by unfamiliar territory every time I walk out of my door. I feel like every one around me is in on this big secret and I'm the person they're keeping it from. 

I deeply know that this is my path and this is what is right for me, but this level of loneliness is deafening. This heart-stopping stillness is sometimes defeating. This is nothing compared to traveling across the world with a group of strangers. At least then we were all in it together. Now, it's just me.

I understand that this will get better and I will grow and learn to rip myself from being dependent of others and learn to rely on myself for stability. It will just take time. For now, I'm just sad and lonely. This too shall pass. 

Broccoli

My room has had this moldy, water leak smell in it for the past few days. I've been trying to figure out what could be making it smell so badly, but couldn't find the culprit.

When I was emptying out my big bag to rearrange my stuff for AP1, I was welcomed by a rush of that moldy, water leak smell.


I had forgotten to take my lunch out from Wednesday's classes. Oy. Needless to say, my room no longer smells of mold. Also, broccoli is very easily mistaken for that smell as well.

I've had a long weekend and I definitely didn't utilize my lonely Saturday night off as well as I should have. I feel so SWAMPED with homework, I don't know how I have time to blink. I still need to finish my 14 patterns from my book as well as start my study guide. Waahhhhh!

This is my view from my class at the loft. It was such a lovely day today though. It's my roommate's birthday and she chose to have sushi for dinner. We were being such whiney pants after school though. I was crazy tired, cranky and hungry, so I wasn't pleasant. I've been getting very lovely headaches lately too, so I always look forward to those. We came home, ate Japanese and took naps (well, I did at least). 

Saturday Night Swatching

I need to make friends, guys. I can't be living in LA, sitting at home doing homework. It's just not supposed to be a thing.

I'll do better. I swear. 

P.S. my swatches are done. 

Croqui

I've gotta make this short because duty calls and I've spent the last few hours trying to troubleshoot broken internet.

I had Fundamentals of Sketching and Textile Science today as my last "new" classes. I know now that I hated traditional University the moment I got my croqui book. The minute I opened it I couldn't stop looking at it. At University I loathed having to buy books and supplies, but here (even though it's included in your tuition) it's like a surprise at the beginning of each quarter. Everything is so fascinating and I'm so enamored by all of my textbooks.

I'm really excited to get into sketching, it's really basic stuff but all stuff I haven't ever done before. I am also really glad my teacher has such great energy and is genuinely interested in each of her students. I love that about educators.

Finally, the only class I'm remotely terrified about is Textile Science. There is so much to the subject of textiles alone, but my professor doesn't make it one bit interesting. This was the only class that made me feel like I was back at UVU. I didn't have a great first impression of it, but as time goes on, I'm hoping it will definitely improve.

I'm off to finish my study guides and prep for quizzes! I promise I'll start taking pictures of my day so you can actually see what I'm doing throughout my classes/days.

Bisous!

Dotting Paper and Manilla

I'm definitely not in Utah anymore when strangers are courageous enough to scream sentences that are often recognized as compliments when in close proximity to another. I laugh at men whose manners are not exactly developed enough to understand that shouting at a woman will not get you her attention.

My only class today was Apparel Process 1 which basically takes you through the process of pattern making and sewing a garment. I was baffled by a lot of the information because it was pretty basic enough for me to know what I'm doing and I felt pretty good about my skill in each area. Each week we'll learn something different and eventually we'll sew together a dress. Next week we'll start on the bodice and go from there.

Last week I laughed at seeing people walking around with rolls of muslin thinking, "That stinks! They have to carry that everywhere!" but once I got my supplies before class... I was that one person walking around with a roll of muslin and a tote bag stuffed to completion. Tool box in one hand, muslin in another, I knew I had to do the inevitable – I had to buy a rollie bag. :(

But guys, before you judge me, it is soo not cute to lug around a bag that weighs a million zillion pounds. Plus, it's not fashionable to have a broken back. ;)

We have to personalize our tools and let me tell you how much I love sewing swag!

Wanna know the best part about today? No school tomorrow!

The Nitty Gritty

After wasting an hour of my precious life in traffic just getting on the freeway, I am beat. I just started work at the Gap at The Grove and my little four hour shift was fun and terrifying in all the right places. There is a scary amount of employees at that store, so it is definitely easy to become just another one.

The Beginning

I've been promising this blog to myself for a week or so now since I've been trying to keep friends and family updated with how I'm doing. I'll try my best to post as often as I can, but life sometimes catches up to me. It's been a little frustrating, but at this point, I'm ready!